I’m revamping this blog, and I’m starting anew.
I already lost count how many times I changed my blog. I alternately write in English, Tagalog, and Taglish. I often sound churchy and spiritual in my blogs, but sometimes I also write about love, politics and even random humorous stuff I picked somewhere. I can’t seem to find my niche. I don’t know how to focus. All I know is when I find the urge to write, I will write.
Now, I’m carried by my second wind.
Welcome to martsvalenzuela v.2.0 reloaded with a whiff of excitement and uncertainty.
Funny thing is, I’ve been in WordPress since 2008 (pre-WP, I’m a Multiply regular). It’s a tremendous effort to organize all my stuff here and migrate salvageable writings to my other blogs. While it’s easy to just delete all things and start from scratch, I feel like a parent about to lose more than a decade’s worth of musings. I started transferring stuff since June three months after, finally this space is ready to be loaded once again with my scrambled thoughts.
So, what am I planning to write in this blog?
Hmm, since I consider most of my writing as a personal ministry, I became too conscious of pleasing people with my crafted words. I became too obsessed writing to impress people of what I learned and how I fared with my personal battles. I unconsciously try to portray an image that only presents my best foot forward. While some people reach out to me and tell me how they benefit from what I am sharing, I get too comfortable writing for others and forget that I should write for myself as well, hence #NoteToSelf.
I’d like this blog to be my crucible where I write about how God purifies me to be who He wants me to be. If I feel defeated or heartbroken, feeling disgusted or angsty, then I’d be true to myself. No need to present a sanitized version where people can only read the good and not the bad.
Of course, I’ll still write some reflections and lessons I learn from time to time, with a more personal tone. Life hacks? Why not! As long as something stirred me from the inside, this blog will be the first to know. Besides, I’ve been away from WordPress for two years, and I really miss the warmth of the community here!
It is my desire that this tiny space in the blogosphere be an encouragement and a blessing. May this second wind carry me all throughout.