The #SuperBlueBloodMoon and How We View Life

Peeking through God’s glory and power is like looking through a telescope. We can see a glimpse, but not the whole picture. We can take a peek, but we can never comprehend Him in whole.

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Much like the rest of the world, I also was very eager to witness the historic super blue blood moon that happened January 31. I even brought with me two orders of Spam fries courtesy of BFF Diner’s Felipe’s Chicken Fillet to munch while waiting for the spectacular celestial show (unfortunately, it didn’t last that long. Mabilis lang naubos haha!). I wished I should have brought chips and drinks din, as I never thought it would take us until almost 11pm. Buti na lang we decided to take a dinner first before embarking to a long night of “tayuan and tingalaan”.

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I was with Laarni and her two training mates, Facs and Mercs (yes that’s how they each other). Luckily, the moon and the skies did not disappoint us. The sky was very clear and I can’t remember any sight of clouds the whole duration. I am also fascinated how many people, mostly students, gathered in the grounds of PAGASA Astronomical Observatory in UP Diliman. May media presence pa! Nainggit pa nga ako sa mga may dalang panglatag sa damo, parang ang sarap maki-higa. Hahaha!

I tried to capture the moon with the puny phone camera, but what could I expect? It was like trying to eat a soup with a fork. Hindi kaya e. Mabuti na lang pwedeng maki-silip sa mga telescopes na naka-set up sa venue. At least may clearer view sa bloody red moon. Indeed, it was a sight to behold! Ni hindi ako nakaramdam ng pagkangalay sa for almost 2 hours! It was an amazing experience!

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Wala e, eto lang talaga kaya ng phone camera ko. Haha!

While I am staring at the moon that time, I can’t help but be amazed how great and awesome the works of the Lord is. Imagine, with just a word, things such as the light, the heavens and the moon came to existence! With just a word, all things, seen and unseen, living and non-living, came into being. Kung may ipinamamalas pang nakakamangha yung buwan na madalas na nating nakikita, how much more yung mga bagay na hindi pa naaabot ng ating mga mata?

My few seconds from the PAGASA telescope triggered my reflective mood, again.

The telescope and microscope basically has the same function: to magnify things which are barely noticeable with our naked eye. Yung mga bagay na masyado nang maliit para makita natin ang detalye, pinalalaki ng microscope and telescope for our sake. Para mas maappreciate natin, para mas mapag-aralan, para mas mamangha tayo.

But their major difference is that, microscope magnifies things that are too small for us to see, the telescope magnifies things that are too far for us to appreciate.

When it comes to our problems, we end up getting afraid and lost and exhausted whenever we look at it as though it is too big for us to handle, as if it is larger than life. Yes, problems and difficulties may sometimes seem insurmountable and overwhelming. I’ve been through that. Yung tipong hindi ka na makaahon sa dami ng trabaho, sa bigat ng pasanin, sa hirap ng pagsubok. But like anything placed under a microscope, problems, when magnified become more scary and unsolvable.

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Nag-set up sila ng projector para mas magnified mong makita yung moon.

Simply put, parang sa microscope, may mga pagkakataong pinapalaki natin ang mga bagay na maliliit, and then we convince ourselves na, oo nga, mahirap to, nakakatakot to. Then we end up feeling defeated and hopeless. Have you ever seen a specimen under a microscope? Ang hirap intindihin di ba? Yung ibang image pa nga, nakakatakot (I have on my mind images of bacteria na may mga cilia, cilia pa. Haha). Likewise, a problem magnified takes away the courage in us.

Punta naman tayo sa telescope. Telescopes are used to have a sight of things that are too far for us to see, like the moon and the stars. Maliit man tignan ang buwan at ang mga bituin sa gabi, pero alam naman natin na hindi siya isang bagay na maaari mong sungkitin. The moon and the stars are enormous in size. Only distance makes them look small. We use telescopes to appreciate them in a distance. To see how do they look. Unfortunately, we can only do so much with our telescopes. Hindi lahat ay kayang ibigay at ipakita sa atin ng telescopic lens. We can only have a glimpse of their glory.

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Laarni peeking through a telescope. Tapos ako sa kanya nakatingin. Hahaha! ❤

Peeking through God’s glory and power is like looking through a telescope. We can see a glimpse, but not the whole picture. We can take a peek, but we can never comprehend Him in whole. Kakapiraso, kakapinranggot lang ang kaya nating makita sa enormity ng glory ni Lord. And the best part? Everytime we try to have a glimpse of God, we get more and more amazed, na ayaw na nating tumigil! I remember parang ayaw ko nang umalis sa telescope that night sa UP Observatory, kung hindi lang sa mga nakapila sa likod ko haha! God’s majesty can never be captured even by the best and largest telescope the man has created. Imagine, hanggang ngayon dini-discover pa rin ang mga planets within and outside the solar system. Yet God has created the whole universe just with the power of His words!

May dalawang uri ng tao sa mundo base sa uri ng lens na madalas niyang tignan: ang microscopic or telescopic lens. People who view life through the microscope often look at problems too and ends up exhausted. Nauubusan ng lakas, napapagod kakahanap ng solusyon, nasasaid ang pananampalataya. Moreover, people who view life through the telescope often gets excited with the Lord and receives strength and encouragement from the enormity of God. The problem doesn’t go away instantly but he knows that God is bigger than any problem he may encounter.

Habang nasa UP Observatory ako, I felt reminded: “dear son, no matter how enormous your problems are, no matter how insurmountable your tasks may seem, always remember that I am bigger than any of your worries. I am greater than all of your concerns. If you need encouragement and reminder that I am just here beside you and you are not forgotten, just look at the sky. I am the One who created the sun, moon and the stars. I will carry you through.”

Thank you Lord. You are amazing! Salamat din po sa libreng pasilip sa telescope ng mga taga-PAGASA. Na-appreciate ko ang #SuperBlueBloodMoon.

Ikaw, how do you view life? Through a microscope, or through a telescope?

PS. Di ko lang talaga type ang Chemistry kahit nung highschool ako.

PPS. Pinangarap ko din kasing maging astronaut dati, hence my bias. Hahaha!

Photo credits: unsplash-logoSam McJunkin

 

Dirt and Diamonds

What if we begin to invest in the lives of ordinary folks within our reach?

They say that in terms of being best of friends, dogs are to men while diamonds are to ladies. Though I am not a lady, I wouldn’t mind owning a piece of diamond! Who wouldn’t want one? This piece of jewelry is definitely a fortune. No wonder, if you adorn a lady with such a precious stone, she ends up beaming with pride.

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I was reading a leadership book and I stumbled upon an interesting illustration about diamonds. It says:

“In a best-case scenario, in the world’s most diamond-rich mining locations, about one hundred tons of dirt must be removed per carat of diamonds. In the average diamond mining locations, 1,000 tons of dirt yield one carat of diamonds. That’s a lot of dirt to remove in order to discover a small number of diamonds.” (Murrel and Murrel, 2017)

I realized that in one way or another, we are all polished diamonds in the making. While some have been found out, polished and are already flaunting their sparkling beauty, some of us still lie beneath the surface, waiting to be removed from the dirt. We all have potential, we all have a purpose. However, we have different seasons. Some are being fleshed out from the dirt, some are awaiting discovery.

It’s easy for us to look at people with “sparkling” personality as if they’re the only real deal. We look up to them. We try to pattern our lives with them. But if we look around us, we will discover that a lot of people are waiting for us to lift them out of the dirt and help them to find their “beauty” within themselves. We look at the old cab driver and see him just as he is – an old cab driver trying to make both ends meet. We pass by “mommy” usher in the church and see her as she is – simply a married woman who tries not to miss her Sunday routine in spite of her marital problems. We try to ignore and not give much of a concern to that unruly teenage neighbor because we think we have more things to attend to than spend time with a “delinquent” juvenile.

Only those with glittery lives catch our attention.

But what if we begin to invest in the lives of ordinary folks within our reach? What if, while waiting for our complete transformation to become flawless diamonds ourselves, we try to unearth some people from the dirt, help them clean them up and speed up their “makeover” process? The concept may seem odd and vague but I think you know what I mean – let us add value to people, help them in their respective journeys and believe in what they are capable to do. Let’s give them hope, encourage them, and share our lives to them. Let’s begin to look at them as who they really are – a diamond!

In order for a diamond to be a sparkling diamond, it must be unearthed first.

“But only if we get our hands dirty can we find a diamond in a pile of dirt. Are you ready to get your hands dirty? Are you willing to get dirty? ”

Unearthing is not easy. Unearthing means work. Unearthing looks messy and will get your hands dirty. But only if we get our hands dirty can we find a diamond in a pile of dirt. Are you ready to get your hands dirty? Are you willing to get dirty? If one can find a diamond in a pile of dirt, I bet he’ll say “it’s worth it!”

I am once a resident of the dirt, wallowing in the filthiness of circumstances and personal view of live. But some people helped me up and encouraged me to see life the way God sees it. I began to see that I am not a product of my circumstances but I am a child of God. I began to see the beauty of life. I began to discover that I am not worthless because I am treasured by the Lord. This is because some people saw past through the dirt in me and saw me as a diamond.

I know you have a story to share too! Now share your story to other and begin investing in a life today. Do a good deed, an act of kindness. Look at people pass through their façade. You’ll never know, you might be living under the same roof with a precious diamond.

The Gift of Acceptance

The Bible says that it is more blessed to give than to receive, which is definitely true. Have you ever felt the unexplainable emotional bliss whenever you add value to a person by giving a part of yourself? Hindi dahil sa gusto mong magyabang or iparamdam na mas nakakaangat ka sa iba, rather you see a need, and you are prompted to act upon that need.

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The ability to give is what makes human. There may be faunas who are capable of selflessness but humanity is endowed with a capacity to think freely, and so to give freely. Di naman siguro tayo mas madamot pa sa mga hayop di ba?

Pero kakabig ako: while we may be wired with the ability to give, minsan nga siguro may pagkamadamot din tayo. Not only in terms of material generosity but also when it comes to treating ourselves better. Minsan madamot tayo sa sarili natin. We deprive ourselves with things that would make us a better – a better giver, a better person. Some of us look out for the interest of others while failing to recognize that we too have our own special needs. In the long run, we may be setting ourselves for destruction.

Are you depriving yourself of significant things? Let me propose things you might have missed out lately:

  1. Accept that some people are better than you

If you are a competitive type of person, this will pose as a challenge. But in one way or another, in reality, there will always be people who can do better than you. You just have to accept that. In looks, in skills, in charisma and even in connections, some are just gifted with much more privilege than you. Does it mean that you are born a loser? Not at all! Their advantages does not mean you are a failure. We are all on a different race so what if they are differently gifted than you? Mind your own race. Treat them as an inspiration, not as a distraction. Wag magmukmok dahil lang naiiba sila.

  1. Accept that there are things you can no longer change

Sometimes we dwell on the past and we regret things we should have done. But past is past, and no one can change it. However, you have total control of your decisions now, and you can make right choices today. Looking back on the good ‘ol days and being caught up with “what ifs” will only slow down your journey. Move on na!

  1. Accept that not everyone will like you or the things you do

You cannot please everybody. Kung sa loob nga ng bahay may di pagkakasunduan, how much more sa labas where we mingle on a daily basis with hundreds of people with different attitudes and upbringing. Not everyone will like you or the things you do because at times they have their own agenda to push through. Might as well learn to be patient with people, habaan ang pisi, and keep your feet on the ground. Humility exalts a person, pride causes downfall. Marahil may ibang pagkakataon pa para sa ideas mo. Or maybe not…

  1. Accept that some of your plans will never see the light of day

All I ever wanted is to have a professional license as a CPA (pero before gusto ko rin maging engineer). All along, after all the efforts and sacrifices I went through, I thought dire-diretso na ako sa path na dinadaanan ko. Until I was led to ministry. Ngayon, nauna na ang ministerial license ko bago ko pa man makuha ang professional license na pinangarap ko noon. Without any regrets, I am happy with the sudden turn of events in my life. I know God have redirected me because He has better in store for me on where I am now. Maybe in your life as well, there are redirections that causes your plans to be misaligned or totally dismissed, but it doesn’t matter that God does not honor your plans. Most of the time He takes away things we value the most so He can give us things that we need and will enjoy the most, all because He values us the most.

  1. Accept that some people are not meant for keeps

This is a sad truth but it needs full acceptance – not everyone are meant for keeps. May aalis at aalis, physically, emotionally or even literally as they are returning to the Lord. Again, this is painful. We invest too much on a person but then we’ll never know if they will stay or not.  We can’t have a person forever. And my realization is this: the reason why God wants us to put Him first kasi people have this tendency to hurt and disappoint us. That is human nature. Kung ang buong buhay natin ay iaalay natin sa tao na hindi naman natin hawak ang decisions, and emotions, not even their lifespan, we are bound to disappointment, pain and frustration. Paano kung sobrang attached ka na then biglang bumitaw na siya? But God will never hurt us, leave us nor forsake us. People come and go, but God is here to stay with us. And someday soon, He will come for us.

  1. Accept that there will always be room for improvement

No one has ever attained perfection. Palaging may room for improvement. We may have invested a lot of sweat and effort, resources and even tears to develop ourselves, but there will always be something to improve upon. We can never be kind enough, kasi there will always be people to express our kindness to. We can never be generous enough, kasi hindi naman nauubos ang mga taong may pangangailangan. We can never be humble enough – kasi the mere fact you are asking yourself if you are humble, you are already in need of it. And when it comes to physical projects, we need to keep on improving kasi the world and its needs are constantly changing. One day sensational ang idea mo, the following day obsolete na yan. Keep on improving.

  1. Accept that pain is inevitable no matter how hard you try to avoid it

Lastly, accept that pain is inevitable. You can never guard yourself from pain. The primary reason is that we are social beings. We deal with people, we interact with them and share our lives with them. Some people can be rude to us, some can be too self-centered. Some are too passive while some are so pushy. Relationships can be messy, but it is always worth the mess. As you may have caused pain and grief to people without you knowing (o kahit pa aware ka), some people will cause you pain and grief kahit pa anong ilag at salag mo. Moreover, pain keeps us stronger. Battle scars indicate us being a fighter.

Think about these things. Masyado ka na bang nagiging madamot sa sarili mo? Accept these truths and set yourself free. Soon enough you’ll find yourself more suited to bless others more.

 

No Stress-passing

“Life is like a photograph, we develop from the negatives”. Tama nga naman, if not for the unfortunate events in our lives, we’ll stagnate and remain the same as before. Hindi tayo magiging overcomer if we don’t have trials to overcome.

May kakilala ka bang stress-passer? Yung mga toxic na tao na may sworn duty yata na magbigay ng inis sa buhay ng iba? Sila yung mga taong unaware na nagbibigay na sila ng “kakaibang high” sa ibang tao. Stress-passers, parang mga trespassers, pumapasok sa mga emotional boundaries ng iba para magnakaw ng peace of mind. Nagpapasa sila ng mga unwanted emotions and will leave us feeling… ‘intoxicated’.

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Pero what if tayo pala ang stress-passer sa buhay ng iba? Na tayo pala ang source ng kanilang irritation and stress? You might think, hindi kaya! Pero who knows? Sabi nga nila, it’s easier to spot another person’s flaw than your own. Kaya naman as we look through the lens of other people’s behavior, assess din natin ang sarili natin if we exhibit the same kind of ‘stressors’ we find in others.

Kung sa tingin mo ay kasing-toxic ka na rin ng mga taong gustong-gusto mong iwasan, here are some tips para naman hindi ka tuluyang iwanan ng mga friends mo.

  1. Communicate clearly

Spare yourself from some disappointments by communicating your plans, expectations, even your frustrations if you have to. No one is like Professor X na kayang basahin ang nasa isipan mo, so please do the world a favor by letting us know what you want us to do.

Tell your peers what you want to happen, and how do want it to be done. Tell your partner how you feel. Let your parents know where you are going and what you intend to do. Sabihin nang malinaw, nang klaro, para walang pagtatalo.

Kung ang mga magkakapamilya nga, halos araw-araw na magkakasama at nasubaybayan pa nila ang buhay ng bawat isa, nagkakaroon pa rin ng misunderstanding, paano na lang ang mga taong tuwing school or office hours mo lang nagkakasama? You can’t expect the world to cave in to your expectations dahil lang naisip mo ito, pero kung ico-communicate mo ito nang malinaw, it will be easier to find someone to join you in your cause.

Hindi kami manghuhula kaya wag kang pa-mysterious, uy!

  1. Increase your patience

Isa rin sa mga toxic kind of people we should stay away from ay yung mga sobrang irritable. Yung kaunting inconvenience lang, todo reklamo na at akala mo wala nang binigay na maganda sa kanya ang mundo. In contrast, those who are very patient, yung kaya pa ring ngumiti in spite of the inconvenience ay napaka-pleasant na kasama, right? Pansinin din ang hilatsa ng mukha ng mga bugnutin… ok, wala na akong sinabi.

In case you are one of this type, I encourage you na magbago ka na nang pananaw sa buhay. Mas maganda ang mundo if you’ll learn to overlook little inconveniences in life. May nag-overtake sayo na senior citizen sa pila mo sa Jollibee? Let it go! May nakatapak nang hindi sinasadya sa white sneakers mo? Let it go! Hindi inaabot ang bayad mo sa jeep ng mga kapwa mo pasahero? Sabihin m kay manong driver, ‘catch’! Nakabayad ka na, may kalaro ka pa! You can’t have peace if you won’t increase your patience.

Learn to let go and overlook minor inconveniences. Hindi lahat sa atin ay exempted sa perwisyong traffic, sa mahabang pila, sa maiingay na kapitbahay, makulit na pamangkin, pasaway na drivers, at demanding na boss. Hindi lahat ng ine-expect natin at gusto natin ay available para sa atin. Kahit mga customer representatives na tinatatawagan natin ay may hangganan lang din ang kayang ibigay na tulong sa atin, kaya learn to let go of the situation and increase your patience.

Wag kang masyadong bugnutin. Maging ubas, wag maging pasas.

  1. Speak life

May kasabihan na “life is like a photograph, we develop from the negatives”. Tama nga naman, if not for the unfortunate events in our lives, we’ll stagnate and remain the same as before. Hindi tayo magiging overcomer if we don’t have trials to overcome.

Pero iba naman pagdating sa pagiging outspoken negative. When I say ‘speak life’, I’m saying that we have to use our mouth to encourage people, not to bring them down. Nakarinig ka na ba ng taong sobrang negative? Iba pa ito dun sa taong impatient. Sila yung wala nang ibang bukambibig kundi puro negative like “hindi natin kaya yan!”, “wala na tayong pag-asa”, “bagsak na tayo, ulitin na lang natin next sem!” Nakakahawa, nakakairita. Stressful sila kasi no matter how you try to find beauty and joy, para naman silang may radar sa mga ka-negahan ng mundo.

If you are a whiner, I encourage you to teach yourself how to appreciate. Simulan mo sa maliliit na bagay – thank the cashier who took your order, thank the cute college chick na nag-abot ng bayad mo sa jeep, magpasalamat ka kay Lord kasi ginising ka pa Niya kaninang umaga! Appreciation even the smallest detail. I tell you, mag-iiba ang perspective mo.

After you learn the habit of appreciating people, you may now begin to teach yourself the virtue of blessing people. Bless them with encouraging words. Bless them with uplifting statements. Sa dami ng mga depressing stories na tinatanggap ng tao araw-araw, dadagdag ka pa ba?

Speak life to people. Maiba lang, wag naman puro reklamo.


Inasmuch as try to not allow stress-passers to ruin our emotional boundaries, might as well bigyan din natin ng chance ang iba na pangalagaan ang mga emotional boundaries nila. Kung paanong pinahahalagaan natin na hindi tayo ma-contaminate ng kanilang ka-negahan, wag din natin silang i-contaminate. Wag kang tumawid sa bakod nang may bakod. No stress-passing.

Inner Healing

But to those whose lives have a scar, this is my message – inner healing is available for you.

This is a tough call for those who think they are well on the inside. But this is what I really believe – most of us, if not all, need inner healing.

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Maybe once in your childhood, you have received remarkable insult from a friend or a family member. Or maybe you have been an object of ridicule in the school. Maybe you have been exposed to negative environment. Or just maybe, someone has influenced you to do the things that gives you remorse by now. Worse, in one way or another, maybe you have received physical, emotional or sexual abuse. If you are not the kind of person mentioned above, you are blessed. I am glad for you.

But to those whose lives have a scar, this is my message – inner healing is available for you. You no longer need to pretend that everything’s working out fine. You need Someone to count on to. You are in need of Someone to give you peace and wholeness you’ve been longing for. I tell you, you are meant for something greater than what you are doing right now! If your past is knocking you out, you can be free!

This Someone is no other than Jesus. He can mend your heart. He can heal your soul. He does not only make a band-aid solution to patch up your pain and scars, He can give you a completely brand new heart! Just open your life to Him and He is ready to welcome you into a new life with Him. Inner healing comes only from Him. Step up in faith and entrust your life to Him, and He will make you “brand new”.

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” 2 Corinthians 5:17

Ang Kaserola at Kung Bakit Dapat Magtimpi Ka

May mga pagkakataon tayo na nawawalan tayo ng self-control. We suddenly snap, and things get out of hand.

Natatawa pa rin ako sa tuwing naaalala ko kung paano ko hinampas ng kaserola ang kapatid ko nang minsang napikon ako sa sobrang kakulitan niya. Pero sa halip na maging disciplinary moment ang nangyari, nauwi lang kami sa tawanan. Bukod kasi sa nayupi ang kaserola, ni hindi man lang niya ininda ang paghampas ko sa kanya (mas malaking tao sa akin ang kapatid ko). Mas lalo pa nang nagsimulang maging sarcastic ang kapatid ko dahil sa nangyari, for me to realize na nag-shift na pala ang senaryo – ako na ngayon ang haharap sa disciplinary moment sa nanay ko dahil sa kaserolang inagrabyado ko.

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May mga pagkakataon tayo na nawawalan tayo ng self-control. We suddenly snap, and things get out of hand. Sometimes we justify that this is plainly normal. May kanya-kanya tayong saturation point, na kapag na-trigger ay bigla na lang tayong sasabog. Parang isang baso na kapag napuno ng tubig at umapaw bahala na kung ano ang mabasa.

City Walls

The Bible tells us that “a man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls” (Proverbs 25:28). During the Old Testament times, ang pangunahing depensa ng isang bayan ay ang matibay nitong pader. Kaya naman lagi itong may bantay sa bawat dako at palaging sine-secure. This is their chief means of defense.

“a man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls”

Kaya naman if there is a breach in the security and credibility of their city walls, their enemies can easily penetrate conquer whatever is inside, and the city is already compromised.

Likewise, ang tao daw na walang self-control ay parang bayan na walang pader. Napaka-vulnerable sa anumang atake. Masaling mo lang nang bahagya, madali nang bumabagsak. Kaunting udyok mo lang, madaling bumibigay. Marupok, ika nga.

Self-control is being able to say no when we should say no. It is the capacity to restrain one’s self against things that are prohibited, or in excess. Yung kaya mong rendahan ang sarili mo sa mga bagay na alam mong makakasira sayo.

Stitching these ideas into our personal context, how do we exercise self-control nga ba (or the lack thereof)?

On Eating, Drinking and Everything in Between

During these times where food parks sprout like wild mushrooms, sobrang tempting ang mag-try ng maraming mga delectable and instagrammable food *maya’t maya*. Lalo pa sa amin na literal na kapitbahay namin ang pinakamatutunog na food park in town. Unless you’re a professional food blogger or invited ka ni Kuya Tonipet sa PopTalk, without self-control, a person can easily give in to excessive #foodporn just to satiate his appetite. Eh kung afford ko naman, is it wrong? It’s a matter of conviction. But at the end of the day, it all boils down to the qualifying question: is my appetite getting out of control?

It is actually not an issue of the amount, but an issue of the heart. Are my desires getting out of control? Am I still in control of my desires or my desires are now controlling me?

Not just in case of eating and drinking, but also in the way we handle our finances. Where do we usually spend our hard-earned money? Weekly sa mga midnight mall sale? Sa mga unreasonable bike upgrades? Sa sugal? Sa bisyo? The list goes on. It is actually not an issue of the amount, but an issue of the heart. Are my desires getting out of control? Am I still in control of my desires or my desires are now controlling me?

Pikon-talo

Dun tayo sa mas relatable: our temper. How easy it is for others to drive us crazy? Yung tipong aasarin ka lang tungkol sa nunal mo, naghuhuramentado ka na? Yung tipong nagkulang lang ng sukli sayo yung jeepney driver, nagsusumigaw ka na? Yung sakaling natapakan ka lang ng kapatid mo at nadumihan ang sapatos mong bagong laba, nakikipag-away ka na? O kaya inalaska ka lang ng kaunti, nanghahampas ka na ng kaserola. Haha!

Siguro naman nag-mature na ako, at hindi na ako basta basta nanghahampas ng kaserola. Kahit paano natutunan ko na hindi dapat nasisira ang “wall” ng pagkatao ko ng simpleng mga pang-aasar lang o pangungulit. Hindi ako dapat madaling mapikon. Pero it is easier said than done. To be honest, while I am writing this piece medyo naiinis na ako sa mga nang-iistorbo sa akin habang nangsusulat. Pero again, note to self, hindi dapat nasisira ang “wall” ng pagkatao ko ng maliliit na bagay.

I feel sad for those na bigla na lang napapaaway dahil sa napakaliit na bagay. The daily news is filled with unfortunate stories of murder dahil lang sa saging, toothpick, cup noodles bulalo flavor o dahil nataasan lang ng kilay. We are surrounded with people with “broken walls” na any moment ay maaaring ma-compromise ang kanilang buong pagkatao.

Strengthen your Walls

A person is only as big as the thing that pisses him off. Anong nagpapapikon sayo? Anong sumisira ng mood mo? Or to state it better, hanggang saan ang capacity ng walls mo? Kaya ka bang pabagsakin ng basketball game, ng pustahan sa DoTA, o ng sukli mong dapat ay pang-estudyante?

Don’t discredit yourself by getting pissed off with trivial things. Bigyan mo ng mataas na pagpapahalaga ang sarili mo by increasing your capacity to understand people and circumstances.

Intensify your wall! Fortify your wall! Don’t discredit yourself by getting pissed off with trivial things. Bigyan mo ng mataas na pagpapahalaga ang sarili mo by increasing your capacity to understand people and circumstances. Taasan natin ang bakod, tibayan ang harang. Hindi tayo dapat nako-kontrol ng ating mga desires at lalong hindi dapat pinapabagsak ng ating mga kahinaan. At hindi tayo dapag agad-agad nanghahampas ng kaserola.

Learning Curve

Never stop yearning, never stop learning.

Ang learning curve ay ang panahong kinakailangan upang matutunan ang isang bagay. Halimbawa, kung ikaw ay nasanay na gumamit ng isang android phone mula nang panahong nakahawak ka ng smartphone, tapos all of a sudden bigla kang gagamit ng iPhone, medyo maninibago ka muna. Ang panahon na ginugol mo upang matutunang i-navigate with ease ang bago mong gadget ay ang learning curve. Mas mabilis, mas magaling. Kung para sa mga kabataan ay hindi naman issue ang pagpapalit ng from android to iOS, para sa mga mahal nating tanders, it takes effort and a lot of adjustment.

The Learning CurveLike what my teacher did just recently, I would also like to quote Albert Einsten (though may mga discussions over the internet kung siya ba talaga ang nagsabi nito) on his definition of insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. This pierced my heart. I am on the look out to do greater things, to accomplish more – things I have never achieved since I began to exist. Pero looking back, parang hindi naman ako masyadong umuusad. I assessed myself spot on: anong pinaggagawa ko sa buhay ko? Steep ba talaga ang learning curve ko?

It seems like we don’t learn from our mistakes, we just look at it as if we have the luxury of time and emotions to go through it again. Masyadong steep ang learning curve.

How many of us learn things the hard way? Yung tipong sobrang tagal na nang panahon na ginugol mo sa isang challenge sa buhay mo, pero tuwing binabalikan ka nito, parang hindi ka na natuto. Na-scam ka na dati, tapos nagpa-scam ka ulit ngayon. Sinaktan ka na dati, you fell for the same tricks ulit. Na-sampolan ka na na mahirap magpa-exam ang professor, pero hindi ka pa rin nag-review the second time around. It’s a vicious cycle. It seems like we don’t learn from our mistakes, we just look at it as if we have the luxury of time and emotions to go through it again. Masyadong steep ang learning curve. Ganito ka rin ba?

LearningCurve2Image credits: https://mindprintlearning.com/blog/the-forgetting-curve/

We are all like the nation of Israel. They’ve been through a lot, literally. Binigyan ng promise, nag-fail. Bumangon, nag-fail. They went through slavery, oppression, captivity, famine, and defeat – consequences of the same mistake they have the inclination to enjoy: idolatry. Kapag nae-encounter ko sa Bible ang malungkot na cycle ng downfall and rising up nila, I usually ask the Lord, “bakit ang kulit nila”? Pero all along I know, I’m no different from them. Makulit din ako.

But the good news is that no matter how steep our learning curve is, God’s love is more stubborn than our worst stubbornness. And I’m saying this on a positive note! God is very patient with us no matter how slow we are to learn. Mabuti na lang! Otherwise, wala na tayong pag-asa. If God has been patient with the nation of Israel, He will also be patient with us. It doesn’t matter kahit makupad ka, as long as you’re aiming for improvement. Kung madalas kang madapa at matagal bago matuto, tuloy lang.

What defines us is not our mistakes kahit gaano kadalas, in the eyes of the Lord, He honors our commitment to learn from Him.

Mas profitable pa rin yun kaysa sumuko. Only the Lord can bring you out of the vicious cycle as long as you are willing to let Him. In the end, what defines us is not our mistakes kahit gaano kadalas, in the eyes of the Lord, He honors our commitment to learn from Him.

How steep is your learning curve? Matalas ka pa rin ba at madaling matuto? O like me, pumupurol nang medyo? Whatever the rate is, never stop yearning, never stop learning.