The Dream

 

It was bit amusing yet chivalrous, bizarre yet encouraging, finding myself in a dream fighting to win someone’s heart. I know, it is imperative not to over-spiritualize things, especially dreams which are most of the time product of our ‘subconscious’ personality, but I believe my dream speaks of every man’s journey to search for his ‘better half’ and upon finding her, to serve and protect her with all his might. After all, God sometimes speaks through dreams. And while I do not claim any direct, divine explanation for my story, allow me to just sprinkle some thoughts I pondered as soon as consciousness hit me on my bed that day.

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The story unfolds inside a mansion with many rooms; contemporary in design yet the expanse so big it is comparable to an ancient castle. Some of the rooms are breathtaking in design and intricacies; some are so plain and dull. A fine, attractive lady is escorting me in my trip inside the mansion, bringing me from room to room boasting of its beauty. Her facial expression goes along with the design of the room – plain and mediocre when inside the plain rooms, radiant and spirited when inside the beautiful rooms.

As we progress in our journey that day, I noticed that the rooms are depreciating in splendor. The surrounding becomes damp and crowded; cobwebs begin to be visible and there emanates a stinking smell. Then I also noticed the embarrassment in her face. Our pace reduced and I can see the hesitancy in her eyes. It’s as if all the pain and doubts and worries and fears in life came upon her that moment. But I admired her for being strong. We moved slowly and she led me to the rooms with the worst condition compared to the first ones. She cries as she was telling me the stories behind the rooms. For some rooms, she can cite reasons, for others, she just returned blank stares, suggesting her lack of idea. I joined her in tears until we reached the terrace, which is also the end of my journey with her inside the mansion.

[I joined my friends outside the mansion. There we talked about our respective journeys in life. We poured out ourselves to each other as a band of brothers, ready to protect one another.] But when I gazed at the terrace, there I find visions of men and women contributing to the ugliness of the rooms I have witnessed inside the mansion. Some are even attempting to create new ugly rooms. Then a stirring came upon my heart. I need to protect the lady. I need to rescue her from people who try to add tears from her eyes by building ugly rooms in her mansion.

With friends alongside, we fought the forces. We fought our different battles. They had their own motivations. Mine is to rescue the lady. But we fought on the same battlefield. Our weapons seemed to be small and weak compared to our antagonists’, but we can retaliate. It is as if Someone stronger than anyone else in the field is backing us up. Ultimately, we won. We ended up victorious. And a celebration awaits us.

I gazed again at the terrace. There she is, surrounded still by the horrors of the ugly rooms behind her. With her as well are the people who love her and care for her welfare. But now I can see her welcoming countenance. Without hesitation, I asked her to come down from the terrace. She turned around and bade farewell to the people behind her, as if asking for their approval, which they gave. And with just a glimpse, she joined me at the celebration below; with the happiest face I can ever imagine, ready to build beautiful rooms in our own mansion.

Lavished In Love

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Day 22: God says you are…

LAVISHED IN LOVE

While I’m writing this post, I am listening to NSYNC’s “That’s When I’ll Stop Loving You”. The song is about a guy na titigil lang daw sa pag-ibig kung yung winter comes on summer, at kung sakaling may hangganan na daw ang “forever”. Rhetorically speaking, hindi siya titigil sa pagmamahal.

One of the things I love about 90s music, particularly RnB – punong-puno ng emosyon ang mga kanta. Tapos samahan mo pa ng mala-dramang music videos na may pa-sway-sway pa ng mga kamay at hawi-hawi ng buhok, ewan ko na lang kung hindi ka mapa-emo. Mula sa puso, maganda ang pagkakasulat, raw emotions. Love songs talaga, hindi mga sex songs. A trip down the memory lane. Buti na lang may Spotify at Youtube, pwedeng balikan anytime ang 90s RnB.

Naaalala mo pa ba yung unang beses kang na-inlove? Yung buhos-buhos ang kilig at ang attention na ibinibigay mo sa taong pumukaw ng iyong damdamin. Sino bang makakalimot sa emotional rollercoaster nang first love mo? Yung emotional bliss nang sinagot ka ng nililigawan mo? Yung tila pagtigil ng oras habang lumalakad ka sa aisle at hinihintay ka ng groom mo? Kung nasaan mang yugto ka ng iyong love story, I’m sure you will agree with me na sa buhay mo, nagbuhos ka nang immeasurable amount of love. Kung sinuklian o hindi, ibang usapan na yun.

Lahat tayo ay nagnanais na makaranas na tumanggap ng buhos-buhos na pagmamahal. Yung love na hindi kinukwenta, boundless at unconditional. Pero sa takbo ng mga relationships ngayon sa mundo, medyo nagiging incapable na yata ang tao na tumanggap at magbigay ng ganung klaseng pag-ibig. Iba rin kasi ang influence ng media, ng mga failed stories at syempre, dahil na rin sa selfishness ng tao. Nagiging bukambibig na rin nga, kahit ng mga bata na “walang poreber” na hindi natin alam kung san ba talaga nanggaling. Medyo distorted na ang perspective ng tao pagdating sa pag-ibig.

While we long for lavish love from others, take into heart that we have already received in Christ a lavish amount of love. Sobra-sobra, more than we deserve pa nga. Gusto mo ng proof? Look at the cross. Spreading His arms, He’s telling you: anak, this is how much I love you. Kung ang ibang tao hindi tayo kayang ibigin ng totoo, kay Kristo makakasumpong tayo ng higit pa sa kayang ibigay ng sinumang tao. We are lavished in love.

Imagine God serenading you with his own version of love song, mas emosyonal pa kaysa NSYNC:

See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!

1 John 3:1

The Power of Rebuke

Ayaw natin, as much as possible, na pinanghihimasukan tayo sa mga bagay-bagay na ginagawa natin. We feel offended when somebody cares enough to point out the wrong in us, aware man tayo o hindi sa mga ito. May pagka-sensitive tayo, ayaw natin na nasasaktan tayo.

On the flip side, hindi rin natin gusto ang makasakit ng damdamin. Marami rin sa atin ang hindi confrontational type. Sa halip na sabihin natin ang mali sa iba, we try to sugar coat our criticisms para hindi masyadong masakit pakinggan. To us, di bale nang masaktan, wag lang ang makasakit ng iba.

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There was a time when I made a sensitive joke about a certain Facebook video. For me then, talking about (and laughing about) that joke is no big deal. Until someone who cares enough about me rebuked and reminded me how disappointing it is for a Christian like me to join the world in humiliating the person in that video by watching such over and over again, to my heart’s content. In fairness hindi ko naman ni-like and share, pero just the same, I took time to laugh about the misery of the person. Kitams, nag-justify pa ako. Haha!

Marahil sa iba, madaling i-brush off ang mga ganung remarks sa atin. “Ang KJ naman”, “masyadong sensitive”, “parang yun lang” to some even we have this snide remark: “masyado namang pakielamera”. Different responses – ang iba umiilag, ang iba naninisi, ang iba nagju-justify ng sarili, yet the best response I should say, ay ang pagtanggap ng rebuke without holding any grudge.

There is power in rebuke. Hanggang ngayon ay naaalala ko pa rin ang lesson na dala ng rebuke na tinanggap ko out of my insensitive patronage sa video na yun. Ngunit marahil kung hindi ako napaalalahanan sa bagay na iyon, I am still living in the futility of my so-called entertainment. A rebuke is like a bitter herb given to us by people who cares enough to help us get rid of our “attitude” disease. Parang gamot na kung hindi natin tatanggapin, maaaring hindi tayo maging maayos.

May mga taong masyadong tolerant sa atin. Sila yung mga taong ayaw tayong nasasaktan. Kahit sobrang evident na ng mga bagay na dapat nating ayusin para sa ating sarili, mas pinipili pa rin nilang manahimik. Nakikita na nila ang dumi sa mukha natin pero wala pa rin silang imik. Hindi sa hindi nila tayo mahal o wala silang pakialam. Their dilemma is that they don’t want us to get offended. Subalit ang ganitong uri ng pagdadamot sa tao ng dapat niyang itama sa kanyang sarili ay hindi pag-ibig kundi pagiging makasarili. It’s the same as saying, “I don’t care if you’re living a lie or being destroyed by your misbehaviour – as long as you feel good about yourself you’ll be fine”. Again, ito’y isang pagdadamot. Kung malaman mo ang mahal mo sa buhay na may sakit at ang gamot ay nasa iyong mga kamay, ibibigay mo ito kahit gaano pa ito kapait. The same goes with our rebuke.

There is power in rebuke – and it is given to encourage, and not to bring a person down. Maybe a rebuke is the most loving thing you can ever give to a struggling person, something that sweet, flattering words can never become. Sabi nga ni King Solomon,

An open rebuke is better than hidden love! – Proverbs 27:5 NLT

Kaya naman thankful ako for people who take courage in rebuking me. Masakit, mahapdi, pero kailangan natin para matuto. In fact, they are the most loving person one can ever have.

Gusto mo bang maging mas loving sa iba? Maximize the power of rebuke. Pero word of caution lang, do this in the spirit of love and not with a motive of bringing someone down.

 

 

 

Splendor

SplendorI believe that God created the moon and the stars

But why do they all sparkle in your eyes?

That God sends lightning in the skies,

But why do they flash every time you smile?

While lilies grow and tomorrow die,

Your beauty fades not with the passage of time

God has commanded mankind to love

But towards you, I would give more than enough.

The splendor of creation won’t be complete without you

For you work wonders even with simple things you do

Each day of my life I desire to win your heart

In this life, to keep you forever will be my lasting part.

You are a treasure in the deep

A diamond I’m willing to keep

And if you can be reduced to anything of value

You can only be measured by my love for you.

Loved

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Day 14: God says you are…

LOVED

Valentines Day, araw ng mga puso. I just noticed that unlike before when I was still in grade school, mas commercialized na ang Valentines Day ngayon. With all the roses and teddy bears on malls, streets and on almost everywhere, mahirap nga namang itanggi that V-Day marketing has really gone a long way.

Love and being loved will always be a good feeling to desire. C’mon, who doesn’t want to feel that sudden gush of emotion of kilig whenever you see your crush, or hold the hands of your special someone? When, as a married couple for a long period of time, you both reminisce your early moments as sweethearts, di ba sobrang nakakatuwa yun?

Pero on the opposite side of the spectrum, meron din talagang mga bitter sa araw na ito. Sila yung mga hindi pinalad sa naging partner, nadisappoint sa kanilang loved one, at talagang iniwang heartbroken.

Iba-iba man ang ating naging karanasan when it comes to human love, there is a kind of love that far exceeds all the efforts, all the mushy feelings and sweet-nothings we receive from a person. And this love is incomparable and unimaginable, dahil ang totoo sa lahat ng klase ng pag-ibig, dito lang nabigyan ng hustisya ang salitang forever. Marahil alam mo na kung Kanino galing ang pag-ibig na yun.

God loves you. 🙂

I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.

Jeremiah 31:3

ABC’s of Love

Alluring beauty is what you’ve got

Blissful feeling, hope will end not.

Crazy about you, eyes, lips, everything about you,

Delighted to take part in everything you do.

Enchanted like caught in the heat of May,

Falling for your antics day after day.

Good times and bad times may come between us

Holding hands, together, anything we’ll both outlast.

I love you, I mean it and it sums it all,

Joy, peace and everything in between already took its toll.

Kindred spirits, that best describes when in love we both fell,

Laughter, food, pictures and prayer as well.

Mesmerizing looks, oh I can never resist,

Never ending love to you I’ll always insist.

Other half, that’s what you are to me,

Passionately I’ll prove that and your eyes will see.

Quickly beating heart, pounding and shouts your fame,

Resonating with emotions, it won’t stop until you affix my name.

Special attention to you I will never hold back,

Through thick and thin, until the last tick of the clock.

Unconditional love is what I desire to give you,

Vibrant affection, and concern that is true.

With all these letters, still words cannot express –

XOXO. Allow me to end with hugs and kisses.

You complete me. I can imagine my life without you, –

Zip, zero.

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Mornings

I love mornings

She kisses my forehead and whisper “I’m just here”

And promises that she’ll lend me a listening ear.

She shoves away my fears,

And wipes away my tears.

Oh, I love mornings!

Yet loving her is to accept that she’ll soon leave

With a promise to return again –

To kiss my forehead as she whisper “I’m just here”

And promise me that she’ll lend me a listening ear.

She will shove away my fears,

And wipe away my tears.

I love mornings!

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Morong, Rizal; 01.09.12